I am calmer now, its amazing what tabacco can do for you. Haven't smoked a cigeratte in 16 months, but I needed this, and the bottle of Jim Beam I bought.
These combine to act as my valume.
I still feel my muscles tense up a bit and a permanent twitch has moved in on my right eye, blood pressure appears to be coming down a bit.
I think I'll go and charge my credit cards to the hilt, hell, my wifes too, it doesn't matter. I'll just ask for a bailout :)